Hey forabetterlife...I guess you already know that drinking won't make any of this any better....Or you wouldn't have quit. It just covers up feelings and makes you miserable that you drank. Not much of a solution. What are you doing for your recovery? What kind of support system do you have?...People you can call or talk to? Go out with? Look into ways to make this easier for yourself....You don't have to do this alone.