Originally Posted by Luling

My kids weren't around last night.
They'll never know.

At day 11 of sobriety I was doing well, very happy.
If I really had a drinking problem, I wouldn't be doing this well.

I was alone with my husband, his booze, and my AV.
I miss hanging out with my husband, having a drink on the patio.

I had told myself I was finished with alcohol, it wasn't an option, I have a problem, etc. I'm so good at lying to myself, because I really believed this. I don't think I'll drink tonight, but I'm not sure I believe myself.

I have a headache and feel like crap. I'm going for a walk now; some fresh air would be nice. Obviously I need to do some stuff differently, will think about that when the fog clears.