Newroad, you said that your husband is a good man and a loving man when he is sober, do you think if he was the man you first married and if he knew what he was going to be like and how he is now with you and the kids that he wouldn't be the first one to tell you to go? The reason he can't tell you this now is that this disease has made him incapable of it. I kept staying and hoping looking for a sign that the one I first married would come back but he never did, so I had to leave. Since I left when I talk to him on the phone he is actually sober sometimes which never happened when we were still married.
Praying for you and your children that God will give you peace and strength.