Al Anon meetings would be a great place for you to start and they're free. And, no you're not psychotic. Alcoholics are known for being crazy makers, it's part of the disease. Al Anon will not give you advice, they will just sit and listen and offer you assistance in the form of support and love. You could always try counseling for yourself and see if you like it, you don't have to keep going if it doesn't work for you.