Thank you for the advice and support. I don't know how I would cope without this forum and wished I had found it sooner.
I had a great weekend, switched off worrying if he was packing. As long as he is out next weekend, I'm trying not to stress. I am just overwhelmed suddenly with sadness.
My friend lives by the coast and has two gorgeous boys. I kept thinking of things my XABF were planning to do - he's still the first person I want to tell my news to and i have to stop myself texting him. I'm both desperate for him to move out so I can begin to move on but dreading it happening and it being actually over. Even though I know it's what I must do. I was encouraged he didn't seem to be drinking since we finished so Friday floored me. It's hit home he may never get in recovery and that makes me so sad. What a waste.