Thank you Zoso77
In some ways (very few, lol) I can see the positives to having this life changing "experience." I could have been continuing on with my life and never realizing I had stop growing. I would never have realized how many changes I needed to make, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. It has been a real awakening for me and I am not going to the miss opportunity to make many changes.
I want to be on the other side of the bridge that Kindeyes described. I have no idea what my life holds for me but I KNOW I have a lot of growth ahead of me and I welcome it. Life is too short to stay stagnant.
P.S. My 18 year old daughter is really reaping the benefits of some of what I am learning. I am letting go and allowing her to make her own choices now that she is an adult. It's her life, she has to live it and learn. (and that's not always easy to do for us Mom's. I see a tattoo coming soon and I will bite me tongue
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