Thank you all for the replies. Like i said already my nightbwent to hell but i will try again tommorrow. I know i should not worry what others think i just feel so bad and guilty cause they have been trying to help. This is the very reason i dont like help because if i screw up i feel worse than i already do. At the same time though i know i cant do this alone. I am going to feel really crappy tommorrow but plan to surround myself with people..