Thank you all for your kind words and support. Unfortunately I had been thinking about this scenerio in my mind for weeks, but fear and confusion kept me from finding out for certain, and it kept me from making that final decision that I knew would be necessary. It was very early and that makes it easier. Most of today was rough but I home with my son. Afraid I wouldnt be able to care for him alone due to pain. But wouldnt you know they gave me the same types of pain drugs my husband was taking. Ironic.