How many times is it going to take!
So tonight i had it all planned out. I was going to drop kids off, go to a meeting to meet with my sponsor then head over to a get together with out alchohol. Did not work out that way! I did drop off kids, but went to the meeting but it was cancelled. Ironically this meeting is next door to a store that sells beer. I was tempted but did not give in. I left came home and ran into a bunch of neighbors who were out side drinking. They offered a beer and I took it! I am so mad at myself right now. I have a get together i have to go to. I am ashamed to go cause they have been supportive and I screwed up big time. I dont know what the hell happened. I am totally bummed and so ashamed. I am going to the gettogether so i dont end up at the bar but i dont know how i will face some of my friends. Not sure if i should tell them or keep my mouth shut and move on.