Alkies have alcohol, and codies have alkies.
Let yourself cry when you need to. A dream is dying, and it hurts.
I've been hurting and crying on and off for the past six weeks since I ended it with AX, and I have noticed that I am definitely feeling better this week. My AX, on the other hand, emailed me this week and told me that he has been suppressing all thoughts of our relationship and trying not to think about it because it's too painful. And I thought, he will be drinking again soon!
Suppressing things to get through the day is fine, but it's not healthy to supress them forever. Pain has to be experienced in order to go away. Doesn't that suck? I know it does. But the good news is, you are not turning to alcohol or things like it to cope so you WILL get through it and come out on the other side.