i HATE...
Getting those "what couldve been" thoughts about my XABF! And even more i HATE getting emotionally upset bc of them! On my way to work this morning i found myself trying to hold back tears as i was listening to 1 of those loveydovey songs on the radio &thinking about how things couldve been with my X. How happy we COULDVE been. How my son COULD'VE had both parents. How my X COULD'VE gotten help if he really wanted to. Etc etc!! In addition, what really irks me is that this is even more wasted brain space and more wasted emotion on a person that doesnt deserve either!! I take full responsibility for putting myself through all the chaos & misery but i wish i could shut off my thought sometimes, especially these particular ones bc its all crap. Its a fantasy & my life sure isnt a Disney movie! Alchies have booze to suppress their thoughts & emotions but what do Codies have? Ok im done now everyone have a great weekend!