Hi Jbee,
I sure am sorry about your mom, and for what you are going through as a result of her drinking. I had an alcoholic mom too. It was one of the most stressful times of my life.
One thing you should know, and it appears to be absolutely true, is that you cannot stop your mom from drinking. That has to be something she wants. You can however, help yourself to regain some happiness, by learning more about what you can do for you, in this situation.
This is an awesome site. Many people here who understand, and who will be happy to support you and listen, share, and encourage. What helped me was to read "Codependent No More" by Melody Beatty. Meetings have been positive for me, but not all meetings were a good fit.
We understand your pain. I believe that doing what is best for you, is the best thing you can do for your mom, too. Hang in there and stick around here, reading the stickies are very helpful and encouraging.
hugs
chicory