Originally Posted by
Morning Glory 
You might want to talk to your doctor and try to find a therapist to talk to right now until you get past this crisis.
icelated, the best thing I ever did for myself was find a therapist who specializes in addiction, then followed up with 12 step meetings. I remember the moment he said "you're powerless" when I shared the latest story, then I finally said it and bawled like a baby. I'm normally not a crier, but that day the flood gates opened and all that excruciating pain flowed out of me.
I also remember the first time my daughter detoxed. The addictionologist there asked me to imagine my worst fear for her, then asked me "now what happens to you?" I was dumbfounded but an answer - the truth - came to me, "I find a way to survive."
Please continue to reach out and find help for yourself. Find a healthier way to survive
