it really helped me to know that there was a place I could come for support as I struggled with leaving that relationship. I was much sadder than I expected to be and it was the closest I've ever come to really understanding what it must be like to be an addict. I had no idea how addicted I was to the drama/him/chaos. There was a huge amount of trauma bonding.
I second guessed my decision a whole lot but now see how much better off I am. I do hope that my story can help other people. I thought that we were one of the ones that had made it to the "other side" as he was sober. Not so much. He had had a 20 year history of crack addiction and was sober for 6 years.
Hang in there........it really is something that you just need to power through......