Thank you light seeker. It's only been a week and a half since we went our separate ways for good. The struggle with myself more than I ever thought I could endure. It is so nice to hear that there is light at the end of this tunnel. Also you sharing about how he is sober but not in recovery really hot home for me, my AH apparently has not been using, but will it get any sort of treatment. That alone I feel speaks volumes. This forum has been so eye opening and supportive and honest! There is life out there, we just have to find it