Thank everyone, I appreciate all the responses. It's just tough because I'm just realizing I have literally wasted 3 years of my life. And even more than wasted, dug myself a huuuge hole. I always thought I was the cool party guy but I am now the opposite. At the time I was living for the memories I made being drunk, not the future. I guess alcohol just gave me a high ego, and I'm just now realizing just how much it messes with your mind.