@ inda. I will be seeking out a sponsor today. Thank you for welcoming me home. There is something in those words that ring true for me
@ sapling
I want to believe that something is different this time. I want to see that i can change and that my life doesn't have to be a merry go round of insanity. I do not trust myself yet. I really need to work on the relationship that i have with god and the relationship that i "think" I have with myself.
I have prayed for this for a long time. I realized that i had to admit that i was powerless and that i give up. I seriously give up. Alcohol will always be way more powerful than I am. There is no way around it.
Ask and you shall receive.
I too, am beaten by this.