It's alright Gina. I'm a disgusting alcoholic too, that's why I quit drinking. I couldn't stand doing that to myself any longer. You can take back control of your life, by not drinking. You can do it. Just take the initiative and follow through, then reap the benefits. I'm glad you found this site and I wish you the best of luck. Never give up the fight. You deserve a better life.
LeAnne