Do you know how long you spent drinking? Thinking of drinking? Obtaining drink? Planning around drinking? Planning for drinking? Avoiding because you couldn't drink? Contemplating drinking.... Etc......
It's a bit ingrained in your behavioral patterns still. It's going to take time to change. It is a process, slow and gradual and it will STICK with you, if you work on it!!
It's probably a really good thing that it isn't an abrupt change. Ya took long enough to make it a serious series of habits, so it will take ya a while to undo those habits, too!
It's worth it.
YOU are worth it! Give time time and heal everything well!
Peace,