I know it's not a good idea, and I know I deserve more...I guess I am just hopeful (foolishly) that things are getting better on his end, they certainly seem better, and discouraged by the apartment search. I spend at least 2 hours a day searching and either there is something horribly wrong with the place or it's gone before I can even see it in person. I never felt poor before, but now that I left and am dealing with a tiny budget on my own it is really hitting home. The stuff that is out there in my budget is just plain sad. So depressing!