As long as you think it's possible, then it is, when you think it isn't, then it won't be. The mind is incredible and sometimes we are our own worst enemies. I'm happy that you're going to a meeting, but I think you have been here so many times that you think making it back is guaranteed. One day you just may not. You should seriously think about that. Or maybe things won't turn out as you planned with ending up in an ER, maybe you will seriously hurt yourself, or worse, someone else.