i sure hope you are willing to put in the footwork of the program of AA. reading the BB i am sure you have noticed that going to meetings and getting a sponsor are not suggestions in the steps to recover, but we are blessed to have people that went before us to guide us and teach us if we are willing and openminded enough to learning. we gotta put in the footwork to change our thinking(will) and actions(life).
sobriety rocks!!! one day at a time! and when i have to its one minute at a time!