I just asked my therapist yesterday..."when did I become ths sick person?"
I was bread to be a Codie and have exhibited these behaviors before however my higher power graced me when a man with a addiction a major self hatred and brought me to my knees. My bottom. The relationship exposed it all....you are not alone.
Very appreciative to have a recovering addict respond you ....he is speaking the truth...are you up for a lifetime roller coaster ride?