Hi, akazia. I'm really glad you pulled yourself out of that nosedive. I think it's great you came back here. I worry about any thoughts of suicide though. Do you think it might be worth calling a hotline, seeing what kind of referrals they have? Seems like nothing to lose but a few minutes... here's some info:
Colorado Suicide & Crisis Hotlines - When You Feel You Can't Go On... Call a Suicide Hotline. / SuicideHotlines.com - Direction for immediate crisis intervention for the gravely suicidal & treatment for major clinical suicidal depression.
You haven't thrown your past sobriety away. That's yours forever. And now you're back again. That's what matters most. Hang in there, OK?
