Thanks Dee....I already know the answer...
I need to go to more AA meetings.....I don't have that network or even a sponsor.........both could help so much when the cravings hit..........the other night I had a friend come over but tonight she was busy and I just couldn't handle it.......
I'm upset but not totally..........usually it's a weekend long event.......tonight was just a slip up....I'll go to bed....wake up feeling guilty but not hung over....and I'll start over............again.
More AA and finding more support.......of course I know I could have just come here and mentioned that I was about to drink and would have found tons of support......................I think part of recovery is realizing that you do have support, even though you try to ignore it and use it as an excuse.
Good night.......tomorrow is day 1......again.......ugh
Donnylutz
