Originally Posted by
AlreadyAlone 
Hello everyone. I've found myself reading here again- so I joined tonight as my Long-time boyfriend is probably out drinking again. I'm so tired of crying, and just realized that my fear of being alone keeps me with him, but that's silly because he always leaves me alone.
Just wondered how much support will I find if I start coming here regularly - I have a hard time getting myself to the Al-Anon meeting in my area- I went once 2 months ago and couldn't stop crying.
Background: I only recently found out that my guy who had been sober for over 10 years had started up again. He hid it well, and I freaked out because in my heart I know where this leads. He later admitted he had been drinking again for a couple years... More freaking. We were almost going to have a break up talk about in at the start of April, but at Easter he decided he was done with that life and things were going better. What changed? I'm sure tomorrow I will hear its the terrible stress of the job he took in March (no just being codependent here, it's a very dangerous workplace). I thought we were OK, but tonight I came home for dinner, not here, no note, turned off his cell when I tried to call it... How do I know when it's time to have that talk?
Hi
I'm a recovering drunk. We drunks hold our partners as a hostage with our drinking. We can always justify our drinking in our mind with any and all excuse, if we can't find one we will make one up. Thats want the sickness does the brian does it's okay to drink.
The problem is it's gets worse or progrees as time goes by. he has to want to stop for himself and not anyone else. Most of us have hit rock bottom in order to stop. It's a life time of talking to a higher power. Once a drunk always a drunk. Hope this helps.