Cloudstrife,
Great post. Stop wasting time, and make this it. How I wish I would have wised up at 29....
Sobriety rocks. It is like living life in reality, a reality that you can make good and happy, because you are comfortable in your own skin. It just kind of evolves.
I have a lot of respect for you that you just walked into an ER and asked for help. You can do this. And you can have a great, healthy life. Go for it! I wish you the very best.