I can completely identify with you. My AH never does anything in a social setting with me. He and i are seperated at this time. All you can do is make yourself happy. You are doing the right thing. I also find myself thinking- i this how i want to spend the rest of my life. Sure he can get better, but how long will it last this time? Can i stay healthy and walk this road with him? Do i want my son exposed to the ups and downs of recovery and addiction? It just flat out sucks that the ones we love suffer from this nasty disease.