((Emmy))) - just because HE wants all this now doesn't mean you have to give in to him. I'm an RA and I wouldn't even THINK about trust another RA without a solid year of actions speaking recovery.
You have the right to say "I'm just not ready" and it's okay. You don't EVER have to be ready. So, he's had periods of being clean...let him prove he can do it on a daily basis AND change his lifestyle AND maintain a job, give you money for the kids, and deal with bad stuff that happens in life, and not use.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy