WoW!! I could have written this exact post. I am/was not a daily drinker. Often I could have a glass of wine or a drink with dinner and that was it. A few times a month though I would get *&^%faced and never knew it was coming. Always at a social event or a night out. Puking, blacking out, spilling my deepest secrets, annoying my husband, embarassing myself, etc etc etc. In the past year it seemed I was getting too drunk about once a week and the thinks I did when drunk were too much for me to handle. The guilt and shame of waking up and having to check my texts, or ask my husband to find out what happened...awful. I am now in AA and 13 days sober. It took me a long time to accept I had a problem bc I was not a "textbook" alcoholic. I didn't drink every day. I had a great family, job, etc. I could control my drinking, sometimes. Anyway, welcome, and message me if you'd like.
Ann