My AH seems to be on some kind of downward spiral mentally. He has been drinking a lot for a couple of weeks, and I know he tends to do cocaine when he binges. He is all over the place. I thought he was sober when I spoke to him earlier today, but now I'm thinking he's under the influence of something. I'm at my parents' house with our kids. I don't feel that it's a good idea to turn my phone off because it will make him really angry. I did that the other day and I have several threatening voice mails from him. I can't let someone in this state near my children, but I'm afraid if I go get an attorney, there is a possibility he would hurt me. I'm not quite sure what he's capable of anymore. I don't want to be tortured by him for the rest of my life and I want to protect my children from hi craziness. He has never been abusive toward them, but I don't know if he's going to be doing this on a regular basis. I am really worried
I have so many regrets. I didn't think it would end up here.