Hey Emmam -- my story is very similar to yours. My last binge was April 26 of this year and waking up the next morning was rough enough that I decided to consider how to deal with it. My first thought was targeting moderation, but I discovered this forum and put up a post with a remarkably similar title to yours and the general response I got was that moderation wasn't really possible. Deep inside I think I knew that was true and also truly felt I would benefit from completely abstaining. Two weeks later I'm really happy with that decision and intend to keep it going. I'd strongly recommend it for you!