Yea, the idea of quitting was not very appealing to me either in the beginning. I think almost everyone on the board would say the same. However, now that I have some sobriety under my belt, I have embraced it. Emmam, keep in mind that this is a progressive disease and it only gets worse. Ten years ago, I might get black out drunk maybe once a year. Then it steadily increased to a few times a year and so on and so on.
When I was actively drinking, I would always say to myself that in my next life I was coming back as a normal drinker. Now that I've been sober, I'd be happy to come back in my next life with this. Overcoming this problem (not being complacent....know that I have to work at this everyday on some level for the rest of my life) has boosted my self esteem exponentially. I feel like I can take on a lot of things that I definitely wouldn't have had the courage to do if I had continued to live that life.