Hi emmam
well, I started that way...but the binges kinda got more and more frequent...and then they started to run together.
I can't tell you what to do, but I will tell you I really wish I'd faced the reality back then - any time I lose control drinking alcohol is really one time too many.
I spent years holding on to those times I drank responsibly as proof I was 'ok'... but I wasn't.
You'll find a lot of good advice and support here
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