Originally Posted by
Vajra 
I want to die. Spare others my mistakes. Please help me....
I have felt these feelings - awful, dark, lonely. If you are drinking, those feelings are real easy to stay fixed in. Can't get out and away from them until you put the bottle down.
Come back, talk to us sober, clear-headed. Get focused again. You really, really can and you ARE worth it. Come on back.
Pam