I would call it untreated alcoholism. Alcohol was my solution. I have a new solution in the steps of AA. They saved my life and gave me a new view on everything, especially me.
Breathe. Your babe needs ya, so do we. Consider an opportunity to start life, yours and the baby's, on a new path.
We're here for you. I hope you told the doctor about your health history.
I wish you well! Call the AA hotline and maybe someone will come and talk with you. There is new relief!
Hugs,