Originally Posted by
xanaduforever 
I was just being honest about what was going on in my head.
IMO, It is the thinking you should look at, not necessarily "what" you took in "what" quantities. What were your motives?
My program tells me that I CANNOT take ANYTHING that may alter my mood in any way (caffeine, nicotine, alcohol, drugs, on and on). When I *need* something to treat an ailment that I really actually have, I go to a doctor, who knows my history, and I get help. I still, to this day, DO NOT make unilateral decisions where chemicals are concerned.
Good luck with whatever you decide. Not that it really matters, right? What matters is you address what's going on with your program that led to the slippery-slope thinking. Are you spiritually fit?
mf