icandoit, my heart jumped out of my chest when I saw the title of this message. It stopped racing as I read through your post. You know why? Because I was scared it was YOU and I can't tell you how relieved I am that it was not.
I am sorry for your pain about your Mom. I can't imagine how horrible that feels. But YOU are safe, and that was what mattered to me. I am SO proud of you- you are one of my great inspirations.
Feel free to vent in any way you need to about your mom. She has her own path though...and you have yours no matter how much you love her.