I really appreciate all the insightful responses. I'm not seeing a therapist, because I know what issues underlie my alcoholism. (In addition, I'd lose my job.) However, it's always good to get input from others who have been where I've been.
I guess I just don't like being around me. It's too bad, since I'm always around.
Thanks again for the feedback. I'll be thinking about all of your comments today.