I was just like that.... not always, years ago I was a social drinker then my drinking got to where I would just drink at home with just my husband or by myself... probably like that the last 6 years. So alot of people had know idea how much I drank and smoked cigarettes. My mom called it a closet drinker...lol.. whatever that meant, who am I fooling..I know what she meant. Try to keep yourself busy and hopefully that will help your cravings. I know when I hang out on SR it helps.