Thanks, Dee--I always appreciate your responses. They really resonate with me, as they're the perfect combination of rational + reality.
My boyfriend--who has talked about proposing to me--has no idea that I even drink. He honestly thinks that I've had a drink or two in my entire life. Part of me is so ashamed and part of me is so happy that I've hidden this. He loves me as a person for whom I am not.
I'm still sober. Let's keep it that way...