I appreciate all of the great responses. I'm still clean and sober. I've made it this long before. But hopefully being honest and open about it will keep me away from that first drink. Its never safe to have that one drink for me, even though it seems like it should be.
Last year I went 4 months without a drink. I thought it would be fine to have a few, back in October, I've struggled with it since then.
Anyway, I just have to fill my time with other activities.