Thank you Carol for that very deep and informative link. Honestly though? I'm not really sure how to take it. While it stresses caution and care in pain relief for "addicts", it almost leaves the door open for opiate use with serious CP patients like myself. While I don't know what the future holds for me in the long run, the immediate goal that I've set for myself is to get off the narcotic pain relief. At least for a period of time to see what the hell that feels like. Right now the pain is substantial but I vacillate between embracing the pain and cursing it multiple times a day. I am alive though and that feels good.
Thanks also to Keltie for the words of support. I may have to go back to a few Trams when my wean in complete. I must be getting close because while the WD symptoms aren't terrible, the few remaining doses I allow myself daily don't do much of anything but keep my GI distress in check.