Sapling you are so right. I've even said that myself, drinking...it's the only thing I'm truly good and that's sad and also not true, it's just easy. When I hit 10 days I got scared. I started seeing a different person and it scared the #### out of me. I used dumb excuses to fail this month. Like when my next door neighbor showed up with a beer just to chat. If I quit what would I do then. I'm not gonna say no and look like a fool or tell him sorry but I'm an alky and can't drink cuz I'll end up passed out again. Who would do that? It's like I was too scared to admit that I have a problem to others...that really scares me. I appreciate your words Sap!