Hang on in there Piggypumps. I'm glad you're taking things one day at a time - i can relate to that!
I don't know if you have tried Alanon, but one of the great things about it is that people really do understand - many of them will have been through exactly the same as you and even if their circumstances are different, they understand what you're going through. That has been a huge comfort to me. And this forum is just the same - you absolutely can vent and know that people care and understand and want the best for you..
I guess it's something that we only find out when something really bad happens - friends will be "there for you" in different ways and to different degrees, but it is probably difficult for someone who hasn't experienced the hell that is living with alcoholism, to understand and relate to everything that we are going through.
We share your pain and send you lots of positive thoughts and hopes for you to get through this.
And remember, this too shall pass.