Hey youngmind!! Welcome to the site!! It was a pleasure to read your story... not because of the bad stuff in it but because of all the good that's in there too! You have come to terms with a major problem that many people ignore until it kills them! While giving up alcohol is by no means easy to do... it can be done as many people here will attest to. For me coming up with a plan and getting others involved with my recovery has been very important! I look forward to reading more posts from you soon!