Every time I choose to NOT use, and face things sober, I learn that I don't have to use, to face things.
I can dump the booze and pills, but I still find myself stockpiling fear. Ugh.
I have this written on the wall next to my bed "ask yourself what a hopeful person would do in this situation, then try it"
That's what I do, when my tunnel vision doesn't keep me from seeing what is right next to my head.