I am upset that he continues to lie and b.s. me. I am grateful he did not have a heart attack but angry that he didn't go to detox which would have cost us nothing. Now we have a huge hospital bill.
I'm angry just reading this. I can only imagine what you're feeling.
outolunch said something very true above. What you described is, simply put, going through hell. So what are you going to do for yourself? How are you going to take care of you? If I may be so bold...I'm sure having to lie for someone goes against your own sense of right and wrong, especially when the person you're lying for is avoiding responsibility for his own choices.
Please put you first and do what you need to do to be well.
ZoSo