Check out my second signature. It's true...you have the key to your chains and you do NOT have to live like that. Of course, change is scary, but you can do it, just like thousands of other people have. Hopefully now you have learned that you cannot believe one single thing he says. He lies. He lies all the freaking time. You know that. You have to rely on yourself for your happiness and serenity. That isn't something another person can give you, and especially not an addict.