Sometimes I imagine myself in my own little apt. with a futon. I looked at some last week. It seemed so peaceful.
You hold the key to your happiness, you are the only one who can make your dreams come true,
You don't have to live like this, really. I am sorry to say, it almost never gets better but often gets worse. You will know when you have had enough...just remember, the choice to change is yours alone. You hold the key...you.
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